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Friday, October 18, 2013

Refleksi Pengajaran

HAHA.Padahal kemain liat nak tulih refleksi dalam buku RPH
baik,aku nak reflect sikit aku punya sesi pengajaran sepanjang 3 bulan ni
walaupun aku tak dapat major subject,tapi aku terima subjek lain ni as challenged
contohnya math.aku bukan minat sangat dan bukan reti nak ajaq pon tapi dah dapat kuhadap la

1st Subject : Math

Sepanjang aku mengajar,aku dapati masalah aku ialah sumber PnP aku tu tak cukup.pemalas senang cerita.tak mau usaha pi carik jam soh budak2-budak tu pusing nak bagi faham konsep.sebenarnya sama je ajar math dengan ks…basic dia sama je..content je beza..teknik sama je..
dan masalah budak aku ialah konsep pertama depa tak betoi.basic macam nilai tempat pun depa tak faham sungguh-sungguh kemudian pi pulak pada tambah,tolak jadik hancur la sebab depa tak faham pengumpulan semula…kalau darab  bahagi tu lagi la…depa tak faham konsep kumpul dan divide.pastu depa tak hafal sifir.tertekan jiwa gua sebab benda asas dia tak faham nak kena ajar balik dah tak sempat..last-last exam…mana yang sempat gua terang balik masa revision tu boleh la nak betoi..yang lain…hancus…kecewa..rasa nak repeat balik.nak ajar subjek ni dan buat penambahbaikkan.

2nd subject : BM

Ni minor gua,so gua rilex-rilex la..Gua ajar ikut band..tapi bila kita amek klas orang lain tengah-tengah belajar memang agak sakit la bila benda patut budak tahu macam imbuhan dan kata nama tu semua kena ajar dan recall balik.InshaAllah kalau dapat balik subjek ni,I’ll try my best.paling penting gua jadik syok nak ajar sebab gua sayang gile kat student class gua ajar ni : 3K..

3rd Subject : Dunia Seni visual
Gua takde pengalaman tapi serius gua suka gile dapat subjek ni sebabnya gua memang sangat suka art.dapat ni kira macam hit jackpot la.class kalau darjah 1 tu payah gak  la nak handle.annoying pon ada kekadang. tapi class lain okey je especially class 1 C…mudah dicontrol dan mudah buat kerja.Next time kalau kena ajar lagi,gua nak prepare betul-betul..RPT,RPM…Gua memang nak pulun all out ajar seni sebab teaching art is fun..budak-budak pon seronok…cikgu laaaaagi la seronok…serius hilang tension taw ajar seni tapi tu la..takde bilik seni..kalau ada satu bilik kosong memang gua propose dah nak buat bilik seni..tapi apakan daya…sekolah gua sekangkang kera  cuma.

*tu jela refleksi gua.Gua belum ada soul nak cerita lagi deep.nanti ye,nanti.kalau gua buat Action Research,gua hupload okey!


Thursday, October 17, 2013

vivian da silva

ni bukan nama anak aku.
ni nama kereta aku.
aku pakai kereta?
aah.
asal tak hupload pon?
sebab segan nak tunjuk kat orang..
kenapa?
kita pakai viva je pon
ye,viva.
hehe
sebenarnya ramai jugak yang cakap kenapa viva???
asal tak beli kete yang okey lagi?
aku pon sebenarnya tak tahu la okey yang macammana maksud kawan-kawan
disini aku cerita la sikit kenapa aku beli vivi ni
owh nama dia vivian da silva eh.kelas gile nama.
aku beli vivi sebab 1st of all Vivi ni murah dari kereta-kereta lain yang masuk klasifikasi okey orang
aku sebenarnya kalau berpoket lebih sedikit pon memang takkan amek myvi sebab kereta fevret aku ialah vios.
Tapi aku ni jenis suka benda yang praktikal.memang pesen aku,aku suka benda yang praktikal.
kena dengan life style aku.kena dengan current situation aku.
vivi ni walaupun tak gah tapi entah la aku tak tahu nak cakap camne..
aku sayang gile kat dia..
sebab vivi comel.
vivi minyak murah.
vivi sangat praktikal untuk aku sebab rumah aku dekat je dengan sekolah
vivi murah.
aku bayar sebulan 385.
kira murah la dari aku beli myvi
apatah lagi nak banding dengan vios
kalau aku pakai vivi,aku boleh save lebih sikit untuk Tabung Haji Muda aku dan jugak lain-lain simpanan
Lagipun aku jugak boleh standby duit untuk emergency case nak balik semenanjung mahupun kot vivi meragam.
kalau aku pakai myvi contohnya la kan...sebulan dah 600 la konon.beza dua ratus dari vivi.
200 tu patut aku dah balik standby kalau emergency pape kete..
kalau aku beli vios pon,aku tak boleh nak bawak vios tu jadik kenderaan balik kampung pon sebab gua kan dekat sarawak bhai bukan semenanjung.
pendekatan aku mudah.kereta tu transport.bukan tempat aku nak menginap.
sebenarnya kalau aku dok semenanjung,ikut perancangan kalau dapat Selangor atau Negeri Sembilan jugak,aku nak pakai Kelisa second je sebab part jimat tu...
sebabnya aim aku memang nak saving.untuk rumah.untuk tanah.untuk usaha tanah ladang abah.
kalau nak usaha tanah tu nak kena ada saving la...kalau takde saving pon...nak buat loan la konon an...kalau loan kereta aku je dah banyak...camne gamaknya aku nak buat loan...
cuba bayang dalam masa 5 tahun,aku ada saving lebih sikit...cepat la keje aku boleh gerak..
kalau muda-muda aku dah habis duit untuk bayar kereta.perbelanjaan kereta je.....sakit la nanti.
Gaji bukannya besar mana....
Memang la Vivi ni bukan idaman tapi vivi ni keperluan yang sangat kena dengan aku
tetibe je aku rasa camtu jugak kalau aku nak pilih pasangan...hahah...mesti macam Vivi...praktikal...tak hensem takpe tapi sederhana dan menyenangkan hati dan perasaan.
sungguh aku cakap aku senang hati pakai vivi ni.senang hati,lapang dada aku rasa daripada kalau aku pakai vios ke.

*tenang.hehehe : )

saving

bercakap soal hati ni memang benda payah.
bercakap soal rasa
ia terlalu abstrak.
dan aku.
aku pandai bercakap soal rasa guna kata-kata dalam bentuk tulisan cuma
aku tak pandai nak tunjuk depan-depan.
aku tak reti.
aku takut.
aku malu.
dan rasa tu hanya bermain-main dalam hati.
kadang-kadang menjentik aku bagi aku sakit nak menangis.
dan sungguh aku benci
dijentik-jentik,diusik-usik
aku tak selesa.aku tak suka.
kalau minta aku kata
harus aku menangis  masa itu juga
sebab,aku nak simpan.
aku nak simpan baik-baik


Wednesday, October 2, 2013

losing

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A7ry4cx6HfY

To lose someone you love.someone yang ada pertalian darah memang benda paling pahit nak ditelan.
untuk cakap sabar…its easier said than done.
kadang-kadang kita rasa kita kuat tapi kita lemah sangat-sangat
.jiwa nak meratap.rapuh.payah.
dan untuk lekatkan dalam kepala yang satu hari nanti everybodys will be leaving..
it is part of life tu sangat susah
walau kita dah rasa
untuk hadap benda sama
untuk rasa emotional breakdown tu
kalau boleh tak mahu dah kita jejak time tu
dah taknak rasa hilang tu.dah taknak rasa sedih tu
tapi ni kenyataan hidup
aku mohon pada tuhan.beri aku kuat untuk hadap kalau aku harus kehilangan lagi.

Thursday, September 19, 2013

Ponteng

kalau nak tahu kenapa pelajar ponteng,tanyalah pada pelajar yang kaki ponteng juga.

walaupun aku cikgu,aku takkan kata kerajaan saja nak carik salah cikgu sebab point ni make sense.why?
sebab aku pon kaki ponteng.Aku bukan budak baik yang patuh peraturan.my school years agak rebellious but I am rebellious in my own way.Aku tak suka,aku boikot.which is ponteng
memang bila ingat balik,rugi pada diri sendiri tapi jiwa aku masa tu,kalau aku tak boleh nak faham.kalau cikgu tu tak make effort nak buat aku faham aku fikir no point aku pergi sekolah
seriously I skipped school sebab beberapa subjek macam fizik dan add math.
sebab I hate this two subject.I cant even understand any of it plus cikgu ajar dengan sangat laa...
aku tydo kot taim class.yes,its rude dan sebab tu aku ponteng je terus.dari dok dalam kelas aku tydo meleleh ayer liur.
I came to school because other subject and other teachers macam subjek BM,Sejarah.Maybe sebab otak aku otak kanan kot.Otak Bahasa.Sains Sosial jadik memang aku lembap nak faham dua subjek tadi tu.Tapi aku rasa tanggungjawab cikgu tu untuk buat class rasa homey bukannya rasa mengantuk.Student ponteng,ada kaitan jugak ye dengan cikgu.
Masa form 1-3 aku blaja kat sekolah asrama.Suasana lain lepastu cikgu-cikgu aku pon best.Serius la..Sampai sekarang aku rindu Ummi Jariah yang ajar sains...cikgu Norehan yang ajar Geog...Semua cikgu masa aku kat sekolah asrama dulu sentiasa buat aku inspired nak pergi sekolah..
Sebab dorang ajar memang terbaek!

*aku selalu janji kat diri aku,aku taknak ajar bosan.Aku nak bagi budak-budak semangat datang sekolah dan tak buat perangai bodoh macam aku.

Wednesday, September 11, 2013

the ugly truth

WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. Last beverage: GreenTea
2. Last phone call: My niece : Ciknah bila ni? Masak pandai dah...ngemas power dah
(one fine day my dear)
3. Last text message: My Niece,Maybank account number
4. Last song you listened to: Voice Within,Christina Aguilera
5. Last time you cried: At Home.Last Raya.I miss mom.

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice: No
7. Been cheated on: Yes
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: No
9. Lost someone special: Yes
10. Been depressed: All the time
11. Been drunk and threw up: No

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:
12. Grey
13. Black
14. Red

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2013)
15. Made a new friend: Yes, so many from FB.
16. Fallen out of love: Hurm...
17. Laughed until you cried: Yup.Masa reunion ASBT
18. Met someone who changed you: Yes.
19. Found out who your true friends were:  Hurm...
20. Found out someone was talking about you: Ada aku kesah ?
21. Kissed anyone on your Facebook friend's list: So many of them.HAHA
22. How many people on your Facebook friends list do you know in real life: Half of them
23. How many kids do you want to have: 5.
24. Do you have any pets: Nope.
25. Do you want to change your name : Nope.I love my name.Nama ibu nabi.
26. What did you do for your last birthday:I did nothing..just jadik Fasi kat Janda Baik. Best!!
27. What time did you wake up today: 6.30am.
28. What were you doing at midnight last night: FBing.
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: Olympus Pen.
30. Last time you saw your Mother: 3 September 2011. IMY mom.
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: I wish I could spend the whole night talking and lying beside my mom,before she died.
32. What are you listening to right now: True Love Waits by Radiohead
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: Yes.Tom is an English tutor at our school
34. What's getting on your nerves right now: To drive my own car.VIVI
35. Most visited webpage: Facebook.Blogspot.
36. Whats your real name: Aminah.
37. Nicknames: Min.Minah.Ninah.Cikgu
38. Relationship Status: Single
39. Zodiac sign: Saggittarius
40. Male or female?: Shemale.HAHA
41. Elementary?: SK Pasoh 4
42. Middle School?: SMK Sungai Kruit,SMK Teriang Hilir and Tuanku Muhammad School.
43. High school/college?: IPG Tengku Ampuan Afzan,Kuala Lipis Pahang
44. Hair colour: Black.
45. Long or short: I like it short and always short.Short is sexy and stylo : p
46. Height:154cm. pendek.
47. Do you have a crush on someone?: yup.
48: What do you like about yourself?: keramahan
49. Piercings: Not interested
50. Tattoos: Kharommm.
51. Righty or lefty: Kanan lebih afdhol.

FIRSTS :
52. First surgery: None
53. First piercing: None
54. First best friend: ntah.x ingat.
55. First sport you joined : olahraga kot.
56. First vacation: PD.with my bro and his family
58. First pair of trainers: ntah.

RIGHT NOW
59. Eating:] nothing
60. Drinking: nothing
61. I'm about to: sing
62. Listening to: Fix You,Coldplay
63. Waiting on : salary so I can go to vacation

YOUR FUTURE :
64. Want kids?: of course.
65. Get Married?: I wanted to but...hurm...one fine day...
66. Career?: Guru Cemerlang.Master.Phd.

WHICH IS BETTER :
67. Lips or eyes: Eyes.I love my brown eyes
68. Hugs or kisses: Hugs.Mom hugs
69. Shorter or taller: Tall.
70. Older or Younger: Younger,no responsibility
71. Romantic or spontaneous: spontaneous
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: Stomach.
73. Sensitive or loud: pheww.
74. Hook-up or relationship: I don't know.
75. Trouble maker or hesitant: troublemaker

HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger: No
77. Drank hard liquor: No
78. Lost glasses/contacts: Yes
79. Sex on first date: No
80. Broken someone's heart: Yes
82. Been arrested: Yes.By warden.
83. Turned someone down: Yes
84. Cried when someone died: I rarely cry but I did when my mom died.
85. Fallen for a friend?: Yes

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself: Sometimes
87. Miracles: Yes
88. Love at first sight: No. mostly must be through friendship
89. Heaven: Yes
90. Santa Claus: No
91. Kiss on the first date: No
92. Angels: Yes

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: No
95. Did you sing today?: Yup.in front of laptop.In toilet.in kitchen.I love singing
96. Ever cheated on somebody?: Yes
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?: As far as I can be with my mom.maybe since birth
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be?: a day I met him for a last time.I wish we didn’t meet.we didn’t talk.we didn’t make a promises we cant fulfil.
99. Are you afraid of falling in love?: Yes.
100. Are these answers above all truths?: Yes.


philophobia

Its been years I sit on the fences.
Just looking at others
Go on with their relationship
some struggle.some break.some make it through next level finally
and me..
I’m still sitting on the fences
hesitate
afraid to jump cause I’m afraid of falling
how I wish I could jump off the fences
but me myself
I’m too coward
I am hesitate
I’m too defensive
I give no room for others
I just let them stay in front of the door
You know,all these years
I’m guarding myself
I have control
I control my action so that I wont fall into emotion
but yet I’m still lose on emotion
that one time I fall
change my emotion condition tremendously
and still I greive for same damn thing.person.
I hate myself for that
that’s why I hate it when I start to attach with some other guy
I wont let myself to attach with people
cause I know how its hurt
to let go of thing that we’re attached to
its hard.its hurt.cant be healed in nick of time
How I wish I know who I will be married to
so that I can let of my guards
give him chances
show him how I care
show him how I need him
show him the ugly side of me
show him the funny thing about me
show him how mushy I can be
show him that I’m not really frozen emotionally
I just need someone who can makes me feels
I can depend on him.He wont let me go no matter how hard things would be
I wanted someone who will fight cause me myself not a fighter
I’ll quit easily on relationship
unless he showed me that its worth to fight.