sUduT pAnDaNg

sUduT pAnDaNg

Thursday, September 19, 2013


kalau nak tahu kenapa pelajar ponteng,tanyalah pada pelajar yang kaki ponteng juga.

walaupun aku cikgu,aku takkan kata kerajaan saja nak carik salah cikgu sebab point ni make sense.why?
sebab aku pon kaki ponteng.Aku bukan budak baik yang patuh school years agak rebellious but I am rebellious in my own way.Aku tak suka,aku boikot.which is ponteng
memang bila ingat balik,rugi pada diri sendiri tapi jiwa aku masa tu,kalau aku tak boleh nak faham.kalau cikgu tu tak make effort nak buat aku faham aku fikir no point aku pergi sekolah
seriously I skipped school sebab beberapa subjek macam fizik dan add math.
sebab I hate this two subject.I cant even understand any of it plus cikgu ajar dengan sangat laa...
aku tydo kot taim class.yes,its rude dan sebab tu aku ponteng je terus.dari dok dalam kelas aku tydo meleleh ayer liur.
I came to school because other subject and other teachers macam subjek BM,Sejarah.Maybe sebab otak aku otak kanan kot.Otak Bahasa.Sains Sosial jadik memang aku lembap nak faham dua subjek tadi tu.Tapi aku rasa tanggungjawab cikgu tu untuk buat class rasa homey bukannya rasa mengantuk.Student ponteng,ada kaitan jugak ye dengan cikgu.
Masa form 1-3 aku blaja kat sekolah asrama.Suasana lain lepastu cikgu-cikgu aku pon best.Serius la..Sampai sekarang aku rindu Ummi Jariah yang ajar sains...cikgu Norehan yang ajar Geog...Semua cikgu masa aku kat sekolah asrama dulu sentiasa buat aku inspired nak pergi sekolah..
Sebab dorang ajar memang terbaek!

*aku selalu janji kat diri aku,aku taknak ajar bosan.Aku nak bagi budak-budak semangat datang sekolah dan tak buat perangai bodoh macam aku.

Wednesday, September 11, 2013

the ugly truth

1. Last beverage: GreenTea
2. Last phone call: My niece : Ciknah bila ni? Masak pandai dah...ngemas power dah
(one fine day my dear)
3. Last text message: My Niece,Maybank account number
4. Last song you listened to: Voice Within,Christina Aguilera
5. Last time you cried: At Home.Last Raya.I miss mom.

6. Dated someone twice: No
7. Been cheated on: Yes
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: No
9. Lost someone special: Yes
10. Been depressed: All the time
11. Been drunk and threw up: No

12. Grey
13. Black
14. Red

15. Made a new friend: Yes, so many from FB.
16. Fallen out of love: Hurm...
17. Laughed until you cried: Yup.Masa reunion ASBT
18. Met someone who changed you: Yes.
19. Found out who your true friends were:  Hurm...
20. Found out someone was talking about you: Ada aku kesah ?
21. Kissed anyone on your Facebook friend's list: So many of them.HAHA
22. How many people on your Facebook friends list do you know in real life: Half of them
23. How many kids do you want to have: 5.
24. Do you have any pets: Nope.
25. Do you want to change your name : Nope.I love my name.Nama ibu nabi.
26. What did you do for your last birthday:I did nothing..just jadik Fasi kat Janda Baik. Best!!
27. What time did you wake up today: 6.30am.
28. What were you doing at midnight last night: FBing.
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: Olympus Pen.
30. Last time you saw your Mother: 3 September 2011. IMY mom.
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: I wish I could spend the whole night talking and lying beside my mom,before she died.
32. What are you listening to right now: True Love Waits by Radiohead
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: Yes.Tom is an English tutor at our school
34. What's getting on your nerves right now: To drive my own car.VIVI
35. Most visited webpage: Facebook.Blogspot.
36. Whats your real name: Aminah.
37. Nicknames: Min.Minah.Ninah.Cikgu
38. Relationship Status: Single
39. Zodiac sign: Saggittarius
40. Male or female?: Shemale.HAHA
41. Elementary?: SK Pasoh 4
42. Middle School?: SMK Sungai Kruit,SMK Teriang Hilir and Tuanku Muhammad School.
43. High school/college?: IPG Tengku Ampuan Afzan,Kuala Lipis Pahang
44. Hair colour: Black.
45. Long or short: I like it short and always short.Short is sexy and stylo : p
46. Height:154cm. pendek.
47. Do you have a crush on someone?: yup.
48: What do you like about yourself?: keramahan
49. Piercings: Not interested
50. Tattoos: Kharommm.
51. Righty or lefty: Kanan lebih afdhol.

52. First surgery: None
53. First piercing: None
54. First best friend: ntah.x ingat.
55. First sport you joined : olahraga kot.
56. First vacation: PD.with my bro and his family
58. First pair of trainers: ntah.

59. Eating:] nothing
60. Drinking: nothing
61. I'm about to: sing
62. Listening to: Fix You,Coldplay
63. Waiting on : salary so I can go to vacation

64. Want kids?: of course.
65. Get Married?: I wanted to fine day...
66. Career?: Guru Cemerlang.Master.Phd.

67. Lips or eyes: Eyes.I love my brown eyes
68. Hugs or kisses: Hugs.Mom hugs
69. Shorter or taller: Tall.
70. Older or Younger: Younger,no responsibility
71. Romantic or spontaneous: spontaneous
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: Stomach.
73. Sensitive or loud: pheww.
74. Hook-up or relationship: I don't know.
75. Trouble maker or hesitant: troublemaker

76. Kissed a stranger: No
77. Drank hard liquor: No
78. Lost glasses/contacts: Yes
79. Sex on first date: No
80. Broken someone's heart: Yes
82. Been arrested: Yes.By warden.
83. Turned someone down: Yes
84. Cried when someone died: I rarely cry but I did when my mom died.
85. Fallen for a friend?: Yes

86. Yourself: Sometimes
87. Miracles: Yes
88. Love at first sight: No. mostly must be through friendship
89. Heaven: Yes
90. Santa Claus: No
91. Kiss on the first date: No
92. Angels: Yes

94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: No
95. Did you sing today?: front of laptop.In kitchen.I love singing
96. Ever cheated on somebody?: Yes
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?: As far as I can be with my mom.maybe since birth
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be?: a day I met him for a last time.I wish we didn’t meet.we didn’t talk.we didn’t make a promises we cant fulfil.
99. Are you afraid of falling in love?: Yes.
100. Are these answers above all truths?: Yes.


Its been years I sit on the fences.
Just looking at others
Go on with their relationship
some struggle.some break.some make it through next level finally
and me..
I’m still sitting on the fences
afraid to jump cause I’m afraid of falling
how I wish I could jump off the fences
but me myself
I’m too coward
I am hesitate
I’m too defensive
I give no room for others
I just let them stay in front of the door
You know,all these years
I’m guarding myself
I have control
I control my action so that I wont fall into emotion
but yet I’m still lose on emotion
that one time I fall
change my emotion condition tremendously
and still I greive for same damn thing.person.
I hate myself for that
that’s why I hate it when I start to attach with some other guy
I wont let myself to attach with people
cause I know how its hurt
to let go of thing that we’re attached to
its hard.its hurt.cant be healed in nick of time
How I wish I know who I will be married to
so that I can let of my guards
give him chances
show him how I care
show him how I need him
show him the ugly side of me
show him the funny thing about me
show him how mushy I can be
show him that I’m not really frozen emotionally
I just need someone who can makes me feels
I can depend on him.He wont let me go no matter how hard things would be
I wanted someone who will fight cause me myself not a fighter
I’ll quit easily on relationship
unless he showed me that its worth to fight.